See, part of the reason I have been blogging so publicly about my being on South Beach diet is to give me more accountability. If I tell the whole world about it, then the whole world will be my support system. Which you have been. I have received so many supportive comments. This morning I stepped on the scale again. No more weight lost. I am discouraged.
So after I got breakfast for Eva, I went to the pantry and got out the Oatmeal Squares. I set them on the counter. Eva said, "It's Mama's cereal." I said, "Yes, it is." And then I started sobbing.
I can't do it anymore. I hate eggs. I love cereal. I can't live without fruit and grains. I mean, I can, because I did. For 8 days. But I can't do it anymore. I am moving myself into Phase 2 of the diet, in which I can eat a lot more things I couldn't before. Like fruit. And whole-wheat pasta. And whole-wheat bread. And whole-wheat tortillas. It opens up a whole new world, you know? Because frankly, as much support as I get from the rest of the world, I don't have my #1 support at home with me, as he is all the way across the world at the moment. And I can't do it without him.
So here's the deal: I'm throwing in the towel on the impossible Phase 1. Don't think less of me. But if I'm not losing weight and I'm miserable, then that is reason enough for me to move forward with better, more wholesome, eating habits.
My quote for the year is, "Happiness is the object and design of our existence." (Joseph Smith) In putting that in perspective with eating, I have decided that food seriously makes me happy. I love making food. I love giving people food. I love eating food. Since food is such a great source of happiness in my life, it is not logical for me to make it a huge source of stress. On the flip side, I won't be happy either if I indulge in every single craving and go back to eating like I was before. So I will continue to eat treats with my new-found self control and only have one when I really want it. Maybe two, if I have to. :) I don't believe in moderation in ALL things (see this talk which changed my perspective) but I do believe in moderation in most things. Eating being one of them.
So with that confessed, I will got forth and eat my cereal. Which is full of healthy things like fiber and vitamins, with only a little sugar. Goodbye, South Beach diet Phase 1. I won't miss you one little bit. But thanks for the 5 pounds.