We got a phone call yesterday that they had found John's body. I can't explain how strange it feels to lose a friend so unexpectedly. It just doesn't seem fair or right that this should happen to someone so young with so much ahead of him. I have never experienced death close to me other than older family members who all died of cancer. A sudden death like this is something I've never gone through, and it has been hard emotionally and spiritually to try to make sense of it. We are certainly grieving for our friend. But more than that, I am so concerned for his wife Emily. I can't even imagine what she must be going through.
This experience has caused me to reflect on my life and how blessed I am. I appreciate Andrew more than I did a week ago, and I hope that I never take for granted the fact that we live such a wonderful life. Any trial we may face pales in comparison to losing a spouse.
The funeral will most likely be sometime later this week. There are still not many details worked out as the autopsy report hasn't been finished and the location of the funeral hasn't been announced yet. But we are definitely going to be there for it no matter where or when. I feel helpless with this--like there is nothing I can do to help. The least we can do is come and show our support to Emily and show how much we love John. To any of you who read this, please pray for Emily. She is suffering more than any of us combined in this situation. The fact that the Lord allowed this to happen to her says that she has great strength of character--the Lord knows she can handle it. However, it's not going to be easy for her. We love John, and we will never, ever forget him.