Tuesday, October 6, 2009

100 days

Today was a landmark - 100 days of deployment.

It was a really hard day with lots of tears. Not because of the deployment or missing Andrew(unfortunately, I've gotten used to that) but because I just felt so overwhelmed with everything I had to do. I stood in the kitchen, surrounded by messes everywhere I looked, with a view of my overgrown, neglected garden and backyard, with both kids screaming after Eva peed her pants again, and I just cried. I didn't know where to start or what to do next. Dishes, laundry, cleaning, the soap scum on the kitchen sink, picking up Leighton's food he flung all over the dining room, the filthy toilets in all 3 bathrooms, sorting through the mail, unpacking from our trip...How could I even begin to tackle all that was looming over me?

So I said a prayer, turned on some Christmas music for the first time this year, lit my new delicious Scentsy candle, and got to work. The kitchen is clean (not the floor yet - there's always tomorrow), 1 and a half toilets are clean, a load of laundry is washed and in the dryer (including Eva's wet clothes) and I'm feeling a little better. My mom is coming tomorrow, and I guess if I don't get it all done, I'll just be glad it's my mom and not the prophet coming to visit. Although the prophet might not notice the cleanliness of my sink. My mom most certainly will.

Thankfully, I only have 30 more days of doing it all alone. There is light at the end of the tunnel.

P.S. If anyone knows a teenage boy in need of some extra cash, I need a lawn mowing and weeding guy. No price is too high to get that off my list of things to worry about.


Lindsay and Kenny Weston said...

oh steph I'm so glad mom's going to be there tomorrow. I only wish I was coming too :( hang in there.

Ali said...

30 more days, 30 more days!!!!!!!!

I know it's probably weird coming from a non-maternal figure friend type, but I'm so proud of you.

100 days? Seriously?! Wow!! Cleaning with a book on tape/CD has become somewhat therapeutic for me. Christmas music would do it for me too, I think!

Lacking Productivity said...

You are one tough cookie.

Samye said...

YEah for 30 days~~ Good for you!!

Good luck with all the housecleaning...that is why I love when my mom comes- because she can spit shine better than anyone!! AND she doesn't care if it does start out dirty!!

As far as the yard etc goes, you should TOTALLY call the YM presidency in your ward and ask them who would a job. Seriously. I am sure they have tons of kids!

Melanie said...

YEAH FOR 100 DAYS DOWN!!!! I truly hope and pray that the next 30 just fly by!! You are such an amazing woman and I have no idea how you have done SO well for SO long all by yourself. I would never be able to handle it! You are amazing! I left you a message yesterday about a playdate Thursday, but it seems as though you have enough going on right now! Call me when things slow down a bit. And enjoy your mama being here!

Chanel said...

30 days- you have done it!!! I wish I could just send Declan up for the weekend. He would have that yard whipped into shape for the low low cost of some kisses and hugs from his cousins!!!! Seriously ask the young men for a service project- I know ours are always looking for stuff to do. Declan LOVES it when it is yards!!! Enjoy your mom, I promise the mess will not go anywhere :( (bummer, I know)

Mikael Webb said...

I think I just need to come live with you. Problem solved

T K Barlow said...

Yeah, for you! that was a banner day for me as well. Also, I too hired someone to do the lawn. It was one of the best days I had, sitting inside watching someone else sweat out there mowing the lawn. Worth every penny!!! Hang in there. 30 days, I'm so glad.